Dear T,
I can't help but feel like
I made the biggest mistake
Of my life.
Walking away from you last night was The single hardest thing I have ever had to do. Looking back at you, sitting in the big blue chair with your head in your hands, I wanted nothing more than to turn around and hug you until you felt okay.
We decided it was a good idea to take a break until we get things all figured out. although I know it is what we are supposed to do, it kills me to think that I may have walked away from the best thing that has ever happened to me.
You are home to me.
You are my family.
I want us to be together more than anything. You changed my life.
You changed my dreams.
You spoke of forever, and I wanted forever to begin as soon as possible.
You have my heart.
My whole heart.
And you know I don't give that away easily.
And the thing is that I don't want it back.
It's yours.
It has been since the beginning.
Before you I was afraid to let go.
I was afraid to let the walls come down.
I was afraid to love.
I was afraid to listen when people said it was my time, that love was just around the corner.
Then you happened.
I don't want this to be goodbye.
You're my best friend.
Just remember that
I love you cowboy.
I love you more than you'll ever know.
