Dear Boy: Part II

Dear Boy,
I now understand
why you stopped talking to me.
The girl is beautiful,
I'm happy for the two of you,
really, I am.

Just know that not a
day goes by that I
don't think of something
that I would tell you;
that I don't do something
that reminds me of you;
that I don't hear a song
or watch a movie that
makes me think of you.

I can't help but think about
how you made me feel
important
how you made me feel
beautiful
and how for the first time
in a long time that I was
truly happy.

I guess the truth is that
I miss you.
I miss how you could
make me laugh,
I miss how my heart would
start pounding every time
I would see you or when
you would reach for my hand.

Don't worry about me,
I'll be okay,
I always will be.

I have so much to be grateful
to you for. It was because of you
that I got back on my horse
for the first time in ten years.
thanks
It was because of you that I
learned that I deserve to be
treated like I am the only girl
that is out there.
thanks
I learned that the walls that
I have built up in my heart
aren't as strong nor as high
as I thought they were because
you broke almost all of them down.
thanks

But remember
remember me,
remember how easily I trusted you,
remember how you made me laugh,
remember how you still have a piece of me,
and remember that if you came
back that I would accept you like
nothing happened, like you didn't
break my heart, like we were best friends.

I guess what I'm really trying to say
is that I'm not over you
even if I say that I am.