Dear Boy: A Year

I realized today that it has been over a year.

A year since I dated Wade.

A year since I got back on my horse.

A year since I learned so much

A lot and yet so little has changed in a year.

I gained a second family at the ranch.

I gained so much more confidence.

Confidence in myself, confidence in my instincts, confidence in the horses, and confidence that 

I can do new things.

After Wade I was so scared, so.... broken.A year later I finally realized that

I WAS GOING TO BE OKAY.

I realized that it's not up to someone else to make me happy. it's up to me.

I'M THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN MAKE ME HAPPY.

I still don't know what I'm doing over 90% of the time, but

I. Am. Still. Going.

and that's the important thing.